Oh Hayyyy!

Oh hayyy everybody! So lately things have been kinda boring, and I think I need to spice up my look a little bit. So I'm changing my wardrobe... that's right, CHANGING it. It's gonna be great. I'm also excited, because it's SOMEBODY'S birthday tomorrow! And by somebody, I mean me. Oh yes, be terrified. I'm turning fifteen. Look out, world, here I come.
So anyways, I've been getting into Tumblr a lot more, which is kind of stupid, but I kinda like it because I can put my thoughts and feelings out there in the way of like pictures and music and videos as opposed to just words like on here. But don't worry, faithful readers, I won't be leaving you any time soon!
I know there's not many of you, but for those of you who actually DO read my blog, it means the world to me. Seriously. Lady Gaga always calls her fans little Monsters, but I think I'm gonna call you guys little Accepters. You're all so accepting!
Well... maybe I'll pass on that name... but anyways, I love you all.
<3

Fuck You.

Fuck you, seriously, fuck you.
I cried over you, I hurt myself over you, and you just gave up on me.
So fuck you.
I wanted you. I was nice to you. I gave you everything. You just used me.
So fuck you.
FUCK YOU.
Got that?
Fuck you.
I want nothing to do with you anymore.

So what's up with us? Am I supposed to just forget what we had? Am I supposed to forget the sweet things you said? Pretend that it never happened?
Am I supposed to forget that moment when I let my guard down and was vulnerable? Am I supposed to forget the moment that I trusted you?
I didn't think so.
So tell me the truth.

Untitled for now

A beautiful day
Makes the girls go out and play
A California sun ray
Makes the pain go away

We dance in the light
Until day becomes night
She knows he's the right,
Her shiny armored knight

A touch, a word
A laugh, or a kiss
Upon his sword,
You don't wanna miss
The chance to be
His very own queen
To be his queen
Of everything

The sunshiney home
A girl all alone
Not free to go roam,
So she calls on the phone




To be continued -_-

I Want

"Why don't you ask me out already? It's not like I'm going to say no." -Nora Latorraca
I feel it. Do you? I don't know a lot of things, but I do know that if we tried, we could make it work. I know I've been kind of a slut in the past, I know I'm not your usual type, but I KNOW that we have something. We could have something. I know that if you take a chance and give it to me, I won't let you down. I won't hurt you. I will make you happy. I don't wanna be the girl that's considered "easy" or a "slut" anymore. I want you, and I don't want anybody else. There's a difference between liking someone and knowing that someone has potential. I know you have potential. Please take a chance on me. I want that so bad. "You can't find someone without putting yourself out there. That is why love and relationships suck... because you are constantly vulnerable... so I guess what's important is finding someone for whom the vulnerability is worth." -Sasha Bates. I've been vulnerable too many times. I've been hurt too many times. I've put myself out there too many times, but that doesn't mean it wasn't work it. Sure I've had a lot of hook ups and break ups, but that doesn't mean that I can't want someone. I've been boy fasting lately, and it's made me realize that I don't have to jump on every guy that asks me out. Trust me, plenty have during this time. I don't have to be that girl. I don't have to settle for just "liking" someone. I can dare to actually WANT somebody. I can choose. I can choose, and I choose you. Seriously. You invade my dreams every night, and I say your name in my sleep. I know you're confused, I know you're not ready, but I'm here. I'll always be here. Please, please, don't say no. Give me a shot. "If you change your mind, I'm the first in line, honey I'm still free, take a chance on me..."

Que??